The Grand illusion

[freemocy]

This battle has ended, this war I can't win
I raise my white flag and surrender within
Why should I struggle? Why should I fight?
To harness a vision of no hope in sight


Deep are my scars and cold is my heart
My mind is imprisoned, my soul torn apart
My faith has no strength, I don't have a prayer
My demise, It approaches and Now, I don't care...
For this battle has ended, this war I can't win
I raise my white flag and surrender within.

Uptown

[freemocy]

From the top of your head to the tips of your toes,
I like it best when you wear no clothes.
The look in your eyes and grin on your face,
I just want to kiss you all over the place.


And I know when you stand there baring it all,
That I could now, no longer fall,
Because deep in my heart, I already know,
Truly, madly, I love you so.
Each beat of my heart sings a song for you,
Never before has it sung so true.

Baby when I miss you and just want to kiss you,
I close my eyes to see you more clearly, and hope that somewhere
My baby can hear me.

I’ve told you once, I’ll you twice…
You rock my world, you’re simply the best,
You make my heart sing within my chest,
You’re kind and honest, funny and true,
That’s why my darling I’m mad about you!

[freemocy]

If your asking if I need you,
the answer is forever.
If your asking if I'll leave you,
the answer is never.


If your asking what I value,
the answer is you.
If your asking if I love you,
the answer is I do...

[freemocy]

I wonder if it's okay for me to feel this way about you
it's incessant, always ongoing, a repeating cycle
I wonder how you feel about me
but have to many reservations to just ask


I've wanted to kiss you since the first time I met you
You captivate me in a way I've not felt
But I want your lasting friendship more than anything else
and am willing to restrain.
I feel as I'm at an unchanging yellow light
I don't know if I should punch it or stop where I am.
But I feel refreshed when I'm around you
and I have great comfort in your presence.

I question whether you want the same things I do
I long to be held by you, for you to tell me that all with the world is right
and no harm can come to me in your arms.

To gently brush the hair from my face and smile,
I want so little but am afraid it is so much.

So I will have patience on my side
I will wait my turn in line though I want to race to the front
I am not the waiter, but I would wait an eternity for you.

You are one of the few things in life that revive the weary
give hope to the despaired
finds light for those in the dark
and you have opened my eyes.

I feel like I have on occ*ssions before but have never acted upon, I am compelled to hold you close.
but am afraid to be pushed away and never pulled back.

Infatuation is the whirlpool I'm in
swirling in blissful thoughts of you
praying this will never end.

But you don't know me and the road I travel
And you may want to turn back so you don't have to face
the upcoming fork in the road.

It may be a decision you are unwilling to make
Complication, it seems, is a necessity in my life
and it surrounds me often.

Will you resent me?
Will you question my actions?
Will you have an open mind and heart
and take me in regardless of the knowledge you gain?

I miss what I had
it was perfect and perfect is hard to come by
but I must end this restlessness
And I believe you have the cure for my pain.

I just don't know how to ask for the prescription.

Before it was so natural, so smooth
thus I must wait til I feel that way about you
To once again feel free from these chains that bind me
That I have locked upon myself

I wish I could tell you how I feel
The feeling is so strong but I am so weak
And I long for that feeling to subside.

I will wait for you
I will be right here
waiting for the right moment
to stop and pick me up
from this cold and lonely place in which I dwell

And until then I will think fond thoughts
of the hopes and anticipations of being a real part of your life

[freemocy]

I think about us
I think about you
I think about the day we met
I can remember it like it was just a moment ago


It was a sunny day
The trees were green
The sky was blue

I can still hear the whispers of wind

I was back again
Everybody were so happy
Just not me

My heart were still broken

Then I saw you
You were beautiful
You were perfect

How can I ever forget your smile

You looked at me
I looked at you
I fell in love

I was happy