My true feelings about Islam

[LallaAisha]

Salam everyone

I have always been fascinated with North Africa. Mostly its people and culture and music. Music is the thing that led to my interest in islam. The very first time a heard the adhan,which until recently I thought was music,sounded so beautiful it made me want to cry.

Fastforwarding into the future that is part of the past now,I had been contemplating islam. Again it was music,gnawa,etc.But one particular situation happened.

Last summer,I was severely depressed. I was broke,unemployed and worried about my future plus I didn't have the best self-esteem. I also was neglecting my prayers and Meditations to Kali. I was at the time practing a form of hinduism mixed with sufi philosophy.But I felt that I needed a change,and a way out. So one day out of curiosity,I checked out an english copy of the qur'an out of the public library. I got back to my room and laid across the bed and read the book from the first page onwards. I did not finish the entire thing however. But I felt comfarted when reading it. So I felt perhaps naively and a bit desperately, that I should convert to Islam. It was after all, an established religion with a community. After talking with some sisters from my school,September 2003, I formerly took shahada at a famous mosques here in NY on 93rd street.(Tihad if you don't beleive me you can call the mosque yourself they have it on record. I didn't even pick up my certificate). But something happened within me that really was something that was apart of me that I consciously neglected which is my prior faith.

See I had been into hindusim and buddhism since Junior High school,so I am talking about years of belief and experience. How could I go from believing in reincarnation to heaven and hell? Or that one was not free to worship God anyway other than the prescribed way? Or having to wear hijab? I tried to force myself in accepting the religion because I do find it a bit attractive. But not totally.Reading the qur'an doesn't make me want to cry,and I wore hijab and felt terrible in it and swore never ever again to wear it.

Then this forum.Sorry but you people here in general,are the worst examples of muslims and you really make it such a turn off. why? well there is the sex,sexism,racism,alcoholism,drug abuse,hypocrisy,immaturity,Shall I go on? Now I am not saying all of you. Some of you I do like and would love to meet one day like MoroccanChica,Anonymous even Tihad.

I have done much reading on Islam,and I know for a fact that beside the five or six requirements of the religion like zakat,prayer hajj,fasting for Ramadan, all else has changed,and in particular people's attitutes and ways of practicing the religion.

So here is what I think of Islam today in 2004. I should say muslims rather. Muslims are hypocrites who have a superiority complex.Which makes you unwilling to accept rational challenges and questions that are not in support of your faith which you always denounce as slander,but in fact it is that you are scared of doubting your own faith. Islam is not the true religion,and it is full of misreresented information and lies.To me,muslims are just another batch of Christians.And you would do better to fit the relgion todays contemporary society and individualize and capitalize the faith,otherwise the West will continue to kick you around. I say this because I care,hey I am American I don't lose anything eitherway.

I am writing this because on several occasions Tihad brings up his assessment of what he thinks are my views on Islam. Well here it is.

I am not another Tudie because I don't need to slander any Prophets,I don't care enough about them to do so.In fact I actually respect them as I see them.Not as the wusses that religion makes them out to be,but men who were out the change their society for the better.

So take this as you undoubtedly will.
This is a serious post.

P.S: I still like sufi poetry and Gnawa music will always have place in my heart. So I can never fully bring myself to hate islam.And I do read the posts here and elsewhere on islam.

Salam

LA

like we are interessted in your stupid life .!!!!..the GNAWA music is not from North Africa and has nothing to do with north Africa or Islam you little chimp...GNAWA is a term used to call the slaves from GUINEA , yes your forefathers that we sold to the britts...now you know what you need is a nice chain all over your monkey's nick and you should be brought and locked up in the nearest zoo ...monkeys should not have a religion not even their stupid voodoo ....your body can be used for medical research , that's all you are good for.....

[the-sword]

Originally posted by KKK_NAK
like we are interessted in your stupid life .!!!!..the GNAWA music is not from North Africa and has nothing to do with north Africa or Islam you little chimp...GNAWA is a term used to call the slaves from GUINEA , yes your forefathers that we sold to the britts...now you know what you need is a nice chain all over your monkey's nick and you should be brought and locked up in the nearest zoo ...monkeys should not have a religion not even their stupid voodoo ....your body can be used for medical research , that's all you are good for.....

hey brother ..if she's bad u shouldn't be worse than her
its one of the biggest sin when call someone monkey..its HARAM. so if she's a lost soul u should guide her now from ur post i understand ur not muslim cause islam is rahma( mercy) and its all based on brotherhood and love. what u trying to prove here led to one fact that muslims r animals cant make civilized conversations.now notice alhamdalah im muslim so i wont care about the picture u draw about islam here cause i felt it and thanks god nothing ll change my believes but im talking about all the members who join this forum to learn about islam and who dying to have the worse info to use it against us now ur post show it clearly but its not the right message we want to send we have mantak(logic) we can discus and convince others about our great religion..its a gift to all mankind but if any one say something u turn to call him monkey then what brotherhood we trying to talk about ? where's the bond of love and forgiveness our prophet ( peace be on him) order us to follow? . how many people on this earth ready to listen to some one call them monkey (none) so how u ll help here ?
ask god for forgiveness u hurt ur on people and ur on religion no wonder they call us terrorists.

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[Andalus]

LallaAisha,

No offence, you just confused about things, and need to take a step back and think about things with a clear head, and may be find someone to teach you about Islaam, rather than just read books, or questionable articles. Some of your responses to things don't really show a good knowledge of Islaam, I don't claim to be a expert but I can see some misconceptions on your part.

I haven't heard one reply from you regarding some of the posts in open forum regarding sharia and Afghanistan. Seems when you do get a reply with cited evidence of why your perception is false you ignore it.

I think it’s strange that you say Moslems have a superiority complex, when they are frequently accused of having a inferiority complex. But the truth is superior to falsehood and idolatry. If you knew anything about christians and Jewish religon you would not be saying moslems are christians

Who cares what other Moslems do or don't do. Is people’s faith so tied up in the herd? Everyone can go to hell, and I will still believe that Islam is the One true faith and that Mohammed(pbuh) is Allah’s messenger.

My feelings are clear, are religon is deen al haq, the one true faith, that forbids wrong and encourages right. The perfection of allahs deen.

In anycase best of luck to you.

[Edited by Andalus on 26th April 2004 at 11:32]

[mulood]

Salam

"Islam is not the true religion,and it is full of misreresented information and lies."

1-Why aint it the true religion?
2-what are the misrepresented information?
3-what are the lies?

[mulood]

salam.

Its like a game being played here, like, let me post a new thread, provoke people and see how many replies I get!!! You can tell who is sincere in their threads and you can tell the attention seekers.

she posts a new thread and when people try to correct or challenge her she just freezes.